Dancing in the Rain

Week 25

June 23, 2012

This week was hard.  Really hard.

I am struggling a lot with something I cannot change.

So, instead, I'm dancing in the rain.

Do you ever get into a funk and then turn on the radio and there is a song playing that seems to match your exact mood?

That happened to me today.

I've noticed my mind has been wandering a lot lately.

And when it wanders, it goes to places that make it hard to breath.

Today I was driving around running a few errands and the song,

I Will Remember You by Sarah McLachlan came on.

"I'm so tired but I can't sleep

Standin' on the edge of something much to deep

It's funny how we feel so much but we cannot say a word

We are screaming inside, but we can't be heard."

smile

Week 4

January 24, 2012

just because

"just because something isn't happening for you right now doesn't mean that it will never happen."

Holding On And Letting Go

Week 1

January 7, 2012

In the last year I have learned that life is one big balancing act.  

There are some things and events in life that are worth holding on to with dear life. 

And then there are other things that you don't have any control over.  

Things that are better off if you just let go of them.

This year I hope I live in a way that I let go of the little things that don't really matter.

This year I hope I live in a way that I hold on to the things that really truly matter.  

And never let those go.  

12 of 12 | December 2011

I can't believe an entire year of 12 of 12s is complete.  I loved this project and can't wait to do it again next year!

Once again, everyone in the house is sick.  I find it a little ironic that 2 of the 12 photos in this project are us stuck at home while sick.  But either way, I kind of like this set.  

01.  Ibuprofen and water.  The two things that are getting me through this cold.
02.  Watching TV and movies while laying on the sofa.
03.  Abby is going through a needy stage.
04.  Great words.
05.  Abby thought it would be a good idea to use my head as a pillow.  See what I mean?--Needy.  We laid like this for a good 15-20 minutes.
06.  Holiday village.
07.  Christmas card I got from my friend Mallory.  (I also go her 'Save the Date' announcement too!)
08.  Mom and I tried to cure Abby's neediness so we took her on a car ride.  We saw cows and Abby barked at them.  They weren't amused and walked away the second after I took this photo.
09.  Working on my final assignments for school.
10.  Christmas Tree.
11.  My last two assignments....EVER!!!!!! Graduation is in 4 days!  Woo-Hoo!!
12.  The Oscar movies that mom and I watched today.  Trying to complete my list by the end of the year.

"The word LISTEN contains the same letters as the word SILENT."

~Alfred Brendel

"That's what I love you for:

Your inability to perceive all my hideous flaws."

~Time Travelers Wife

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Week 26

"I loved you at your darkest"

~Romans 5:8

"Your past is always your past.

Even if you forget it, it remembers you."

~What Happened to Goodbye

by Sarah Dessen

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Yesterday...

March 19, 2011

...I didn't shower
...studied for a test--made a cheat sheet, don't worry we were allowed one!
...it rained, thunderstormed, and hailed.  All three separate storms with sunshine in the middle.
...ate lots of food
...spent a lot of time on pinterest and facebook--such nice ways to distract a student from studying
...cleaned the sink in my bathroom
...took Abby for a car ride where her ears blew in the wind, tail fluttering, barking at anything and everything and nothing at all
...found this new song, actually mom did...it is called Jesus Rides the Subway by Trevor Morgan.  How great are these lyrics?!

He says

You can lay your burden down

You can lay your burden down

Oh maybe you've been kicked around

But you can lay your burden down

...took some sunset pictures after the thunderstorm
...Abby howled a lot
...read a few more chapters in Something Borrowed by Emily Giffin.  (I've already read it, but reading it again before the movie comes out!)
...the countdown to spring break is beginning to be unbearable.  (After 6:45 today I'm free!!!!)
...I realized I haven't posted my self portrait from last week...oops!
Week 11: March 17
Not the picture I had intended on doing, but Abby just HAD to come outside and she just HAD to be in the photo with me

Tuesday Tunes: Who Says by Selena Gomez & The Scene

Who says

Who says you're not perfect

Who say you're not worth it

Who says you're the only one that's hurting

Trust me

That's the price of beauty

Who says you're not pretty

Who says you're not beautiful

 I had to pick this song because it is so inspiring.  It is a song that anyone can relate to--young and old.  It is awesome to see someone who is a role model to tons of little girls have such an inspiring song with a great message.  (I grew up with Britney Spears and Christina Aguilera--not the best role models for a 10 year old.)

Happy Tuesday everyone!

I Wish...

I wish.......

...I were a better student.
...My friends got together more often.
...I didn't talk myself out of things.

...I were a better writer.

...I didn't have seasonal allergies so I could enjoy the spring weather.

...I knew what I wanted to do with my life after school--and knew how to get there once I figured it out.

...I didn't waste days that I was unhappy.

...The words 'cancer' and 'chemo' weren't in my vocabulary.
...I had that special someone and didn't have to worry if we'd ever find each other.
...I was more daring.
...I could keep my room/living space cleaner.
...I could go back to being a little girl that was always taken care of...
...Yet at the same time, I wish to become a mother and become the care taker.
...I didn't over think things so much.
...My hair cooperated more.
...Some of the little things mattered more.
...More people used snail mail.
...I were more creative.


I am not normally a negative person, but these are just some of the thoughts that have passed through my mind the last year.  A year where I have learned how precious, delicate, and uncertain life can be.

Beside yourself

Rainbows have a significant meaning in my family.  Rainbows signify hope.  When I was 8, my mom had a pretty serious surgery.  She had been praying for God to send her a rainbow to let her know that everything would be ok.  The night before her surgery, I sat in the kitchen drawing.  I drew her a picture of a rainbow.  Not knowing my mom's prayers, God showed her her rainbow through her daughter.

Last summer dad was diagnosed with cancer.  We had a great support system around our family and he received many, many cards.  One of the cards had this saying on it and the quote has stuck out in my mind every since.

It only seemed right to put the two together.  I personally have not gone through a serious medical condition, but this is how I now things are going to be alright.  A rainbow that means hope and a quote to remind me that God is always beside me.

Change

Yesterday was a rough day. Nothing particullary bad happened, I just realized there is a lot of change happening in my life. Change for my future. Instead of dwelling in my current activities, I need to focus on what lies ahead for me. I've learned the hard way that I can not do everything and that it is not healthy to spread myself too thin trying to cover everything that is expected and then some.

As I was realizing this yesterday a verse from a song came to mind. It is called Resolution by Nick Lachey.

I'm standing on the edge of my fear
And I see it clear
Here's my resolution
I'm letting go
All I need to learn is along this road
And I just want to be the best man I can be
Breathe, it's my resolution

Here we go...let's see how this year turns out....